deep love

Love never happen suddenly if its an arranged marriage. Mine was also not different. I was forced to marry my would be(the traditional way of marrying from own family) since she was in love with me since the time she became matured. And my bad luck was i fallen in love with another religion girl. Even though that girl loved me back, she was strong towards herself. After a long time love of 5 years, she left me telling some bloody reasons like i am not loving her as strong as before and she feels my love will stop soon like a water in bottle.

 I lost my heart and lost my carrier which took more than 3 years to recover somewhat. still i was stuck in dreams. My would be told her love in that second year and i was not prepared to make one more person suffer due to my dry love. I told her everything and she said to be good friends and later if i feel love; she will be my wife.

  nearly 2 years passed and me and my would be Shree became very close. She was doing her Pg and me in some small jobs. She was well aware that i have not yet recovered and she cried many nights thinking of her failure in love towards me. One night while talking she cried telling that i never talk to her thinking she is a female. In anger i cut the call and didnt talk for nearly one month. She was left alone and she told her parents about her love towards me which was not a strange thing for them.

 I was also feeling bad about my act. I called her on her birthday and told sorry. After a long time of silent cry she asked me why i am not seeing her as a woman. I told her that my trust and love towards women has lost. but i do respect them and never want to hurt anyone. Shree told she know about my care and respect towards women which she dont bother. I tried to convince her telling about the wound in my heard which has not been healed.

 Shree and me talked for much time. She was less knowledge about sex and such things as all common women of her age. Next night she told me to imagine to see her as a boy and talk as i m a girl. we laughed in that matter and she told to try for some time. I said ok. to my astonishment, we talked for long 3 hours like two strange people talking about outside things as we were not what we actually are.

 Next day i felt much calm in mind and called her to tell these. but she wasn't woke up since it was her first time talking till 3 in morning. She was in her periods also. I felt sad. in the evening, after her class; i told her to wait for me in cool bar near her college so that i can meet her after my office. i told her sorry for making her awake that much time. She said she is much happy that we talked that much deep even though we were someone else. We talked such way for many days.

 One night she told to kiss her. i don't know y i felt shy. may be because i was the female in the conversation. I asked What she feels. She told she feels like hugging her girl and kiss all over. we kept silent and after some time we laughed. That was first time our love started in different way. the next morning we met and i felt her eyes trying to see me in different way. I asked what happened, Her answer was strange.

 "I feel like i am trying to see the one who was talking to me at night."

 "why Shree? so you don't want me to meet?"

 "no, not like that, i felt her presence while you walked towards me. Sorry dont feel bad"

 We departed after some distance of walking together. i was thinking about her words and i too felt i was trying to see someone from her side.

 That night after some talk, she told she wish to talk something sexy. i asked what all she knows. I felt sad that she dont know even to satisfy herself. I told her let us talk and do something to our self. She understood that. i told much femine things like touching boobs thinking of my lover touching them and caressing them, touching on stomach. lowering my bottom dress, touching above inner and feeling my wetness. slowly sliding finger in between the lips of vagina and feeling the wetness, And in a deep feel, sliding middle finger a little without hurting and stroking and getting the peek.

 I didnt hear her say anything that may favour my feels, but what i heard was deep breathing and in sudden exhaling and moaning sound. she cut her call and after some time she called.

 But in between that time i felt peak myself and i was also satisfied my feelings. She called saying her first time feelings of masturbation. That Saturday night i explained her about both sexes till 4 in morning.

 Sunday was sleeping day for us. we both woke up hearing scolding from our moms. Shree called by noon telling she want to have sex with her girlfriend if her girlfriend dont mind. I laughed and told to ask directly.