Then I told her that I not only liked and was interested in fem part I was living but was also thoroughly enjoying myself and held on to her for some time. When I released my hug aunt held my face and kissed me affectionately on my forehead and said that I had given her a few anxious moments and when I told her that I had done it intentionally she displayed mock anger which broke in to a broad smile as we hugged each other for some more time when the phone rang.
Aunt spoke on the phone for a while and then she carried the cordless to her room and closed the door. I did not know about the call except that aunt continued her smile and said that she would make all efforts to see that I was comfortable with whatever I wished to pursue and went to her room to sleep. Next morning as usual aunt was up early and had stitched up the panties with padding which would increase my hip size around 2 inches. When I woke up the house maid was ready to give me oil bath and like previous week had an extended bath. Then aunt told me that she would like me to try out the makeup tips given by Mary and dress up in the red georgette saree. As I had some difficulties with the wig aunt helped me out with the new style and told me that she was going out for a while and expects me to be fully dressed up when she returned.
After about 15 mts aunt returned and the door were opened by house maid as I had still not finished my final adjustments to the pallu. When the maid saw one of my distant cousins Raji accompanying aunt she started giggling and was silenced as they wanted to surprise me. When I opened my door fully dressed up there stood in front of the door aunt and Raji smiling away to glory. Raji then hugged me by addressing as Chitra and said to aunt that she was right in describing me as beautiful looking girl and further complimented that I was real cute and kissed me on both the cheeks in girly style.
When I asked aunt why she did not tell me about Raji's plans she said yesterday was my day of suspense and today was hers and told me about last evenings phone call. She further told me that she wanted to give a surprise to both me and Raji and told her what to expect only on the way from bus stand. Raji further said that I look so much like prema who was very close to her and her best friend. Raji is my aunt's distant cousin's daughter and they stay in Bangalore about 3 hrs from my place. Raji for the past two years has been working in a marketing company and visits our town occasionally normally for a day or two. However this time as the local manager is away for one month she has been asked to take charge which she readily accepted as she would normally stay with us and she happens to be a great admirer of aunt who was also her role model.
Aunt and raji get along very well and when aunt gave her the complete story of my fem dressing and told her that it was a very good coincidence for her to be staying for a month as she can give me girly company and help me in perfecting my fem behavior. Raji happily agreed to the suggestion and hugged me again and said we would hit off greatly. Raji being a city girl normally wore jeans with tops, salwar suits, skirts & blouse, and rarely wore sarees and hence aunt made it a point to tell her that from now on till the drama date she should also wear sarees at home to give me company. As such aunt was not against raji wearing her normal dresses but she said they can wait till the drama was over after which I could also try out her dresses.
After raji took her bath and came out wearing a flowery skirt and matching blouse I found it very nice. When aunt enquired she said she had no choice as she had not brought any sarees.
Then aunt called us both to explore my mother's wardrobe which had a large stock and variety of sarees at least twice the size of aunts. They consisted of variety of silks from mysore, dharmavaram, banaras and madras and latest garden silks. Then there were several cotton sarees from madurai, kanchi, gadwal, kota and bengal which were all roller pressed. These also consisted of a large number of printed silks, voil cotton, polyester and other synthetic sarees. Aunt took out all these and laid them on the bed nicely and started explaining details about each of them which was a lesson for both of us girls. After more than an hour when we finished aunt told us both to select any sarees we liked to wear. Raji selected few printed silks and synthetic sarees in flowery patterns and I also picked up a few printed silks and my favorite kota sarees. Then aunt told Raji she can try 3 fittings of blouses ,one aunts, second moms and third mine and which ever fits her better she could use and found that moms size fitted her nicely. So Raji went in to the guest room and changed to one of the printed silk saree in purple body and red border and looked different and beautiful.
Aunt also dressed up and brought the jewelry and asked Raji and me to wear them and proposed that we all go to the temple and on the way bought flowers for me and Raji and fixed them on the hair. Being a Sunday the temple was a bit crowded. So we three entered the temple from the exclusive ladies only side which was my first experience of mingling and rubbing body with traditionally dressed ladies both young and old. While we were waiting our turn for puja I noticed a couple of my college girls near us and my heart almost came to my mouth and as usual aunt always kept an eye on me and enquired. When I told her about the girls from college she just said ignore them and in case they look at me give them a confident smile. However they did not recognize me and were busy gossiping the event passed off to my relief. Experience and confidence is the key to my problems said aunt and assured me that at least till the drama is staged nobody will recognize me and after which having seen me on stage in dress people might recognize me in public if seen in dress.
After lunch aunt said that she wanted to take a nap and I and Raji took charge of clearing the table and cleaning up the kitchen and were relaxing and got into girly chat. Then Raji started smiling and said that it has been real pleasant surprise to her what aunt told her on the way home from bus stand and to see me in saree again reiterated that I look real cute and she was in fact envying me. Then I replied that even she was looking beautiful in saree and with make up like mine she will definitely look more beautiful and explained to her the Mary's magic. Raji thanked me for the compliments and in her usual way of expressing pleasure kissed me on both cheeks and said that some time she would also like to visit Mary for a makeup session with me.
One important change Raji brought about to our conversation was to keep addressing me in feminine gender common in most Indian languages unlike English. For the next hour or so both of us started chatting about my college girls and how I had started viewing them differently since dressing up and Raji also spoke about her close girl friends and some colleagues. Then she asked me about how I felt about boys to whom I replied that I did not have much experience except the previous days outing at the mall and the boys and the lady's comments about me. When I told her the full story of that lady she started laughing and said that how nice it would be if she could meet that lady and get more details of her son and if she could propose herself at which both of us started laughing for a few minutes. When I asked Raji about her boy friends she told me that one colleague, one of her classmates and one from the neighborhood were trying to woo her but she has not responded to any one as such. Then I told her the story of my play and hoped that she will also not disappoint all of them. Raji then told me that whatever girly chat we have should be between us only and not even aunt should know anything.
That evening while we were dressing up to go for a walk Raji suggested I do my makeup in a simpler fashion which is normally done by most of the girls and they do stylish makeup and hair only for special occasions and aunt also agreed to this suggestion. Then both of them helped me to design a simple make up ensuring that I would still continue to look feminine and I also left my pallu free flowing. Just as aunt was parking her car she saw one of her acquaintances and told us to carry on as she would catch up with us after a chat with her. That left me and Raji and we started in our usual route all the time raji addressing in fem gender which made me feel real girly.
After a while we saw two boys walking towards us from opposite direction. As we were about to cross Raji addressed them as hay handsome and the boys just stood there in front of us and in the absence of aunt I was feeling nervous when Raji just asked them for the time. After the boys responded she just smiled and said thanks and introduced me as Chitra to which I mumbled out faint hay and herself as Raji and said see you some time. When the boys said why not spend some time together now with the beautiful young ladies she replied that our aunt was about to join us and we must leave. Anyway the boys were quite thrilled to meet two beautiful young ladies and hoped to meet us again. All through her chat with the boys I was trying to smile and put up a brave and confidant presence. I was really cross with Raji and asked her why she did that, she replied that it was for my benefit as she wanted me to experience meeting unexpected strangers and still feel normal. Raji further said that as long as I was dressed in fem clothes I should consider myself only as a girl and nothing else and learn to respond like any other girl would do.
It took me some more time to normalize and when I realized that I had conducted myself fairly well my anger towards Raji disappeared when we saw aunt coming towards us. Raji did not mention anything to aunt about our encounter with the boys and after walking for a while aunt suggested we go to one of the Sunday market for some groceries and eat at Dasprakash before going home. It was only after we reached the market that I realized it was near our college and my worst fears came true when I saw some of my classmates (boys) among the shoppers. At that point I was debating with myself if we should avoid them by moving away to some other area of the market and then remembered advice of Raji and aunt decided to face the situation. As per Raji's advice I had my make up done moderately and hence did not attract any special attention from young men or even ladies as I was looking like any other girl in the crowd. Even though some of my class mates passed by near me nobody recognized me and one of them even said excuse me miss as he wanted me to give him way to cross. While going through this experience I was really pleased with myself and my improved abilities and as Raji had mentioned was feeling and being treated like a real girl and was enjoying it.
For the next week all three of us were busy and our rehearsals really going in top gear with all the 4 acts. All the actors were doing very well and the only concern of the members was if can be feminine enough on the stage and as promised the Prof had made changes for me to appear in all the 4 acts and end was also made humorous. On my part I had made it a point not to exhibit my feminine abilities during rehearsals and Prof even spoke to aunt his concerns to which aunt told him not to worry about me and concentrate on other actors. She also assured him that she will help them out with my role when the final rehearsals were held at our house. As requested by aunt Raji made it a point to wear only sarees at home on her return from office and was a great company. With every passing day I was growing feminine by leaps and bounds and at times used to regret having to change from saree to boys clothes to go to college.
After finishing classes that day and before the rehearsals I suddenly realized that due to my over indulgence in the fem role I had neglected my karate practice in the past two days and decided to compensate. In fact I was quite relieved to come back to reality and did an extended workout of karate which brought about a sense of balance and the boisterous masculine feeling came back. The rehearsals were well under control and I had started letting out the fem character of my role little at a time and even the Prof appeared to be satisfied and was banking on aunt for the rest. As for the dress practice at home it was going fine and improving every day under supervision of aunt and Raji. One afternoon when both raji and me were home early and dressed up as aunt asked us to go and pay the telephone bill as it was the last date. When Raji and I reached the payment centre it was quite crowded and we somehow managed to reach the ladies queue which was also a bit long. After a while Raji asked me to hold the bill and cheque and be in queue as she would be back in a few minutes and went out. Due to the rush the queue was moving slowly and as per my estimate it would take at least 15 mts for our turn to pay.
As the male and female queue were adjacent it gave ample opportunity for the men to keep staring at the ladies including myself for visual recreation and even after 10 mts Raji did not turn up. For me all by myself passing those 10 mts was like hours and knew that Raji had done it on purpose and put up with the remaining time and paid the bill. When I came out looking for Raji she was nowhere to be seen and was wondering whether to return home on my own by auto. As I was signaling for an auto I heard a voice from the back calling me hay sweetie and found Raji who was all the while around the counter hiding from my sight and followed me. This time instead of showing any anger I gave a smile and said thanks for the company and she accepted my compliments by saying well done baby. That was my first experience of independently handling an activity in dress though for a short while.
As the week was coming to an end aunt was relying more and more on Raji to manage my activities in dress and gradual feminization. I must say she was doing very well except that at times she would put me in unknown territory and expose me to unexpected situations and all the while I have been learning to handle myself and realizing that it was as much a mental game as the physical aspect of the dress.By now aunt was relying more and more on Raji to manage my activities in dress and gradual feminization. I must say she was doing very well except that at times she would put me in unknown territory and expose me to unexpected situations and all the while I have been learning to handle myself and realizing that it was as much a mental game as the physical aspect of the dress.
On the afternoon of Saturday I and Raji were back by lunch time and aunt was due only later. As we were going to change our dresses I requested Raji to let me wear her skirt and blouse till aunt returned after which it had be a sari. I selected a knee length skirt in flowery design and a matching pink blouse and Raji opted for a roller pressed Kota sari. After dressing up I found that Raji was looking lovely in the sari and complimented her and she also said that I look very cute in the skirt. Aunt returned rather early and seeing me in the skirt said that she was expecting to find me in this dress some time and that I was looking very nice. She also felt that unfortunately the dress requirements of the drama were limited to saris only as otherwise she would have loved to dress me up in some of these clothes as well.
Raji was excited wearing the sari and told aunt that as she was wearing the saris regularly since her arrival in Mysore for the first time, and she had developed a liking for the dress and she intends to continue wearing even after her return to Bangalore. Aunt was very much pleased to hear this change in the dressing sense of Raji and mentioned that apart from being traditional, saris are also worn stylishly like Air Hostesses and is the favorite dress of most lady CEO's of big company's in the country. Then Raji requested aunt to get her an appointment with Mary to help her with makeup and hair style and aunt fixed it up for both of us at 11Am on Sunday. After seeing Raji in that roller pressed kota I also decided to wear one in a different color combination and in formal fashion with pallu pleated and fixed on the shoulder and felt great. Aunt then suggested that as she had carried home some office work me and Rajas to go out on our own but be back home for dinner.
As neither of us had car driving license Raji rang up her colleague to bring the office scooter for her use till Monday morning and gave the address. As Raji was driving I was required to be the pillion and in dress I had to sit in ladies style which I experienced for the first time. Raji was having fun driving around the town and she did not stop even after we reached the MG road which was our walking area. She was in fact trying to see if she could find the boys we had met the previous week. She had almost given up and was about to park the scooter when the boys appeared at a distance and waited for them. As soon as the boys saw us they recognized and with a big broad smile said hay and enquired if they had any fortune of our company to which Raji replied yes if they can behave themselves to be good boys for one hour. As the boys picked up conversation Raji told them that she was employed in Mysore and myself her cousin had come on a visit from Bangalore and my family were shifting to Mysore shortly. The boys also introduced themselves as Hari and Krishna employed in a multinational financial company.
Raji then picked up Hari as her companion and Krishna mine and said that she and Hari would walk in one direction and me and Krishna in the other and we would meet at the same point in an hour. I always expected Raji to do the unexpected but this proposal was beyond my thinking and even before I could react she set off with Hari leaving me stranded anxiously with Krishna who beaming with expectant pleasure. As I was wondering what to do Krishna politely asked me if we should also proceed and I said ok and started walking in his company. After my initial shock was controlled and I composed myself, I told him that I walk a little slow and hence he should reduce his speed to which he agreed. Then I asked him about his other girl friends to which he replied that I was his first and he was a bit nervous which lightened my mood and told him to relax as I was not going to eat him which made him also laugh.
With both of us in a lighter mood he told me about his education, family etc and I also told him about my non existent family in Bangalore and we also talked about our likes, dislikes, favorite movies stars and en route he bought me an ice cream. By the time we finished the ice cream we realized that we were left with 10 mts to return and on the way with great hesitation he asked me if he could hold my hand. I thought that having come this far as a girl I would let him have the pleasure of holding my hand and he held it softly with a sense of achievement. Even for me it was an experience of sorts because as a boy I had held other boys hands several times but holding a boys hand as a girl had a different pleasurable sensation and I enjoyed it. What I did not realize was that we were being watched from a distance by Raji and Hari. As we saw them I withdrew my hand from Krishna's and suddenly felt shy and self conscious and without another word said reached the scooter. However I had composed myself to see Raji giving me a mischievous smile and enquired if we had enjoyed ourselves to which I replied very much and that next time I want to meet Krishna it would be without Raji or Hari to which both of them said wow.
When the boys wanted our contact numbers for future communication I told them it would be better if we contacted them as we may have problems with aunt and they gave us their tel nos and bid good bye. When Raji commented that I was quite bold for first date I replied that I was not vulnerable being a boy and as such today might be the last day I might see Krishna in the dress with my drama being staged coming week end which would also end at least my public dressing. As we were returning it had become windy which was causing my pallu to flow and dance around my shoulders but as I was holding the scooter with both hands I could not attend to the pallu and the feeling was great. As usual Raji's response to aunt's query about our evening was just fine without any further mention of details as she felt that girly secrets should not be given away to elders. Anyway it was an eventful day with learning experiences.
Sunday morning aunt woke us up early as we had to take oil bath and get ready before going to Mary' place at 11am and since we were two, both house maid and aunt got into the act of applying oil massage. By 10.30 both of us were ready with normal make up and left for Mary's place which was a bit crowded with some important clients dropping in unexpectedly and we were informed that we may be delayed by half hour and were handed over few issues of fashion magazines. The waiting ladies both young and middle aged were studying the others for the dresses and styles and Raji was no different. She started giving me her assessment of each lady by turn and liked the overall get up of one lady so much that she went up to her complimented her saying after Mary attended to her she might look much more beautiful. That lady was a senior executive in a marketing company was flattered by Raji's comments and enquired about Raji who introduced herself and me and were invited for Tea and chat after our session with Mary.
Mary had 3 assistants working in small cubical and as our turn came she enquired our requirements. Raji said that she wanted to know the way to make up for office and other important occasions and which type would be suitable for sarees and other dresses. Mary instructed her assistant the details to work on Raji while she attended to me as I was a special case. Mary commented that she has found lots of changes in my fem personality and that I was looking lot more confident in the dress to which I replied that the main credit for all this goes to Mary's magic which brought a broad smile on her face.
Mary then started working on the improvements for both normal and formal make up and hair style. Then I told her about my drama date and that I preferred to come here one hour before the play to get the make up and style done and go to the stage directly and that she should keep herself totally free to attend to me to which she replied that it shall be her pleasure. Raji was first shown the makeup and style for her other dresses and lastly the style suitable for sarees. While we were engaged Raji's new friend was also getting herself styled and she finished within 5 mts after us. When Raji came out she was really looking stunning and the elation was showing on her face and when her new friend saw her she did not recognize at first instance. When we asked Mary for the payment she brushed us aside and said she would settle it with aunt who was one of her best friends.
The lady acquaintance introduced herself as Mala and we went to a nearby posh restraunt for our cup of Tea and a chat. Mala also praised the dramatic changes Mary had brought about in Raji and enquired about us. Then Raji gave her correct info about her job and told her that I was a Home Science student at Maharani' in Bangalore. After a little chat Mala gave details about her marketing job and that she shuttles between Bangalore and Mysore as a Regional Manager. She then asked Raji if she would be interested in joining her company as there was a vacancy as an assistant marketing manager with a good package and she was impressed by Raji. For curiosity sake Raji asked her as they had just met and hardly spoke what is it that impressed her to offer a good job. Mala replied that though as a lady she certainly felt flattered about Raji first going to her and praising her getup but that was feminine trait and personal in nature. But what prompted in her offering the job to Raji was her ability to go to a stranger and acquainting herself with that person as an important quality for a marketing person. Raji appreciated Mala's assessment and said that she was rather good at that skill, which I also seconded, and agreed to send her resume to her for further processing.
I was pleased that in spite of interacting with a variety of ladies and few men I was able to get away undetected thanks mainly to aunt, Raji and Mary. With these thoughts and an unexpected bonus for Raji in the form of a good job offer we returned home in a great mood. When aunt saw us she exclaimed this is unbelievable and asked me is it Raji with you to which I replied Mary's magic. Aunt then said Mary is really a gifted artist and in spite of so many great offers from movie world does not want to get out of Mysore. She further said with both of us dressed so well she can't think of any plan to show us off. Further her pending office work was still incomplete and hence can't go out with us. Then Raji mentioned that she has a plan which was for both of us to perform a fashion parade with different saris and aunt could take photographs and in the evening we could go to Brindavan Gardens for which Raji could arrange a Taxi from her office.
With aunts help both of us dressed up in different saris and walked down the stairs which was our ramp with the pallu in formal, free flow displaying it in several ways. Then Raji proposed that we wear the sari in Gujrati style which was gorgeous. As aunt was busy with her work between our changes of saris she took our photos in all the saris and styles. This went on upto 4pm after which all of us took rest for half hour before me and Raji got ready in Printed silk saris to go to Brindavan Gardens. Aunt told us to be careful to which Raji mentioned that there was nothing to worry as she was going with a karate champion. On the way she asked the taxi to stop at Gandhi statue and found who she was looking for and it turned out to be Hari and Krishna who got into the car with Hari sitting in the front seat and Krishna, myself and Raji in the rear seat.
It was a 40 mts journey to the gardens and after a while Raji told Krishna that she would not mind if he held my hand to which I said a firm no and told her that if she so wished Krishna could sit in the front seat and she can sit with Hari and hold his hand. She then said there is going to be plenty of time for all that once we reach the Gardens and gave a mock smile to me. In the company of Raji I was slowly learning a few tricks and after we reached the Gardens I said to Raji that today we must exchange companions and I would go with Hari and she could accompany Krishna. This seems to have excited Hari as Raji had not extended him any courtesies like holding the hand the previous day. When Raji suggested that we could all go together round the Gardens I again said like yesterday we shall go in different directions and meet in an hour's time for our return at the taxi. As was obvious Raji was not interested in both Hari and Krishna but was trying to give me some lessons and experience of Boys Company and after previous days walk with Krishna I wanted to see how Hari would behave.
It appears that the boys had exchanged notes of their experience of the previous day and must have thought that I was easier of the two girls so I also thought of playing along. As per yesterday's script Hari also told me about him, his family likes and dislikes and I also repeated the same. Then I also added that I was a girl's karate champion which was not in yesterday's script. Hence even after an Ice cream and some snacks Hari did not dare to ask me about holding the hand. He had tried to befriend a few girls but did not get far. Then I told him that one should treat the friends of opposite sex more as companions than for romance which might happen over a long period of association. He appreciated my views and agreed that I was right but asked me why I choose to change partners today to which I replied that I wanted to be friendly with both of them and wanted to get to know them both. At the end of our time I told him that he can also have the pleasure of holding my hand if he was interested and he did not hesitate a second in holding my hand and brimming with pleasure. For me it was only an experiment to see how it felt to do so and I was happy to have done that. On the other hand Raji made Krishna buy her several things to eat and drink and just made him follow her during the outing. On the return I sat in the front seat for fresh air and made Raji to sit between the boys. Only she can explain how she felt about it.
The drama was due end of next week and as decided the final rehearsals were to be held in our house. The routine in the college was classes and the remaining spent in the Karate workout which was shaping up quite well. Regarding the rehearsals at home aunt had made the required arrangements and I had decided that out of six days I would rehearse with my boys clothes only for the first 3 days and during the last 3 days I would wear only a sari on top of my boys dress just to differentiate my role though I had brought enough feminine content to my role. This aspect was well appreciated by all the members and was confident that when I was fully dressed on the D day it would be great. From my side I had decided to expose my real feminine self only on the stage as a surprise package.
As per the programme my Karate rounds would be over by Friday, the girls play was also to be staged the same evening and our play and the prize distribution was fixed for Saturday evening. As our play had shaped up well and I was quite ready with my role in all respects I decided to concentrate on my Karate even by skipping some classes which in the end was a good decision. Like me few other seniors were also practicing very hard and two of us reached finals due on Friday and seeing the other finalist I was less confident than before. Seeing my predicament aunt taught me some breathing exercises to keep me level headed and alert which helped me a great deal and made a difference between my possible defeat converted to victory by a whisker. The karate championship was really a great moral booster for me and my boisterous feeling and I had absolutely no reservations in doing the fem role. By that time the cat was out of the bag about secret of the details of our play and the actors especially the karate champion playing the fem role was the real news and the girls were pleased about it and thought they would have an easy walk over.
Some of the girls had worked hard for their male roles and took the fem roles for granted except one girl who was my junior in school and a good actress. As a team the boys group watched the girls play and found that the performance of the male roles was quite good though they lacked a bit on the male mannerisms and my school junior in a fem role was really good and best of the lot and the play as a whole was well appreciated. That brought about a lot of anxiety to our team members on two counts one the boys had to perform their roles on par with the girls if not better and secondly my fem role had to be really good to decide the competition. With these thoughts I went home and reported to aunt about the girls play and our Professor was also nervous and rang up aunt for help in improving the effect of my role. Aunt replied that he take care of the improvements in the male roles and she would handle mine and asked him to complete the final rehearsals in the morning itself so that I have enough time till evening to practice certain improvements and started scheming for the kill.
Next morning aunt made me take weekly oil massage and as the final rehearsals were to be held in the morning and the play was taking place in the evening she stayed back at home. That day after bath I dressed in one of the saris but kept the makeup to a bare minimum so that I would be adequately dressed for the final rehearsals and my co-actors could get a decent idea how I might look on the stage. Aunt and Prof supervised the rehearsals and improvised on several scenes and were quite satisfied about the performance. The boy playing my father and another who was playing the role of one of my boyfriends were excellent while the others were also quite good and my role was also very much appreciated except the doubt of how feminine I would look and act on the stage. Anyway that part of mine was a closely guarded secret only to be unfolded on the stage. Before they left aunt put forward certain requirements for me like I needed a separate dressing room and between the second, third and fourth acts the interval was to be a bit longer to be decided by me at that time. The Prof agreed and said he would do anything to win the competition.
Aunt had decided that I would wear 3 different saris during the play instead of her original plan for 2 and then set about teaching me certain way fem. handle their saris under different situations. During the first act I would wear the sari in formal way and the same sari would be worn with free flowing pallu in the second act. I would then change my saris for the third and fourth acts and practiced how I would handle or play with the pallu in different parts of the play like just holding the free end with my right hand, then bringing it on top of my right shoulder and in some scenes just letting it free and lastly to bring the pallu in front showing off the design on the folded left hand. These aspects were making all the difference in fem behavior as the girls who played the fem roles had dressed up in only one or two saris through out the play and that too was worn in formal type. Till lunch I practiced these special effects under the guidance of aunt when we were joined by Raji. Then Aunt made me rehearse the whole thing in front of Raji who also made few additions.
After lunch aunt gave a total programme of my dressing plan to Raji and told her that she would accompany me first to Mary and then to the play and personally supervise my dressing. It was also decided that I would make minimum changes between acts except sari and blouse for third and fourth acts and use only one petty coat and under garments. Then we assembled the items required act wise and packed them separately and decided to rest for a while before going to Mary's place.
When I enquired about aunts programmed she replied that she would not be coming for the play as she had some fond and emotional memories of that place when Prema was a student there and she might break down. She further said that the Prof has agreed to keep the rear gate behind the stage open only for our car and we shall go to the stage directly from Mary's place just prior to the start of play and she had arranged for a driver. Around 5 Pm we reached Mary's saloon which was opened one hour before only for us and she got to work immediately. It took her about 40 mts to work on my makeup and hair style which she said was for the first act but she then instructed Raji to make few small changes for the subsequent acts as that would give a new look for each act. She also told us to buy roses in 4 different colors for putting in my hair for each act and wished me luck. The timing was perfect for us to reach the stage through the back gate to avoid any one from seeing me till the play started in 5 mts.
As I entered the rear stage to my dressing room some of my team members around could not even recognize me and said that the room was reserved for actors and I started laughing and when I said I am Chitra of the play it was just beyond their belief. However, all the members came to find me in the dress and said that I was looking fantastic and better than most of the real girls. That also brought about lot of confidence in the boys who were sensing possibility of winning the competition and almost appeared to be possessed by the event and promised that each one of us will try more than their best and do well. As I entered the stage for the first act the crowd was dumb founded if my role was being played by a boy or a girl and if there was any foul play? It was only my voice which had a tinge of male content made them realize that the fem role was indeed being played by a boy who otherwise no where near looked like a boy but a total fem. As first act completed successfully we went into the second with greater confidence and vigor in the process were building up the tempo and my wearing the pallu free flow and certain fem nuances aunt had incorporated and variations in style had its effect.
For the third act I had a change of sari and appearance were done in minimum time and as I appeared on stage there were lots of boys whistling in appreciation. The handling of the pallu in different ways left the girls shocked and wondering why they had not thought of these ideas during their play. However I had reserved the best for the final act where my makeup and style were the best and toying with the pallu was also most feminine. Apart from me my other team members especially my father and a boy friend in the play did an excellent job to end the final act at the peak of histrionics and humor. The crowd both male and female liked the play immensely and clapping lasted for a long time even after the curtains were down.
That ended the competition and the whole team backstage was complimenting each other for good performance and Prof also came specially to compliment me on an unbelievable performance and said that irrespective of who wins he was happy with a good job done and we were able to entertain the public. He also informed that there were 3 prizes, one for the best play, one for the best actor/actress in male role and one for best actor/actress in female role. Further there were 4 judges 2 male and 2 female all of them being famous stage personalities. We had time of 15 mts for results after which the prize distribution would take place. I requested our Prof to see that my Karate prize should be given after the drama prize so that I could go home on a winning note as the drama results were not yet known. He then came back and confirmed that my request was agreed upon. In the meanwhile all of us including Raji were gossiping about the play waiting for the results.
The prize distribution started with sports, literary prizes and the drama prizes were next which made us very uneasy and nervous. Then as the announcement was made that our play had won the competition all the boys in the crowd erupted with joy and started whistling and clapping and the pleasure in the team was also on high pitch as all of us were called on the stage and the prize was collected by the senior most. When he was asked to speak on the win he simply said that but for my role acted beautifully it would have been difficult to win. The prize for the male role which was won by my boy friend in the play and before announcing the prize for female role the announcer took a few mts to reconfirm from the judges about the name and announced with a big smile my name. This was enough to set fire in the girls team and their lady Prof as they had lost out on all the prizes.
It was more than I could take as the role was thrust on me and I accepted it to save the team and our target was to win the competition which we did. But this prize was the most unexpected and when my name was called for a second time I went to the stage still in fem dress and requested that if the judges did not mind the prize should be given to my school junior from girl's team who had acted very well and the judges agreed and appreciated my gesture. However that girl refused to accept as she also felt that I had acted the fem role beautifully and deserved the prize. In the end as a compromise both of us were declared joint winners. When both of us went to the stage I told her to take the prize by saying ladies first to which she remarked that I was more feminine than most females and in real sense it was my day so I must take the prize first which I obliged. After she collected her prize she asked me how I managed to do it and I told her that she must come home some day for a detailed story and aunt would be happy to see her after 2 years. When I went backstage Raji hugged me tightly and kissed me girly style and I told her that all the credit goes to her and aunt not to forget Mary.
When public thought that the ceremony was over an announcement was made that one more prize was to be given and it was for the boys Karate champion. It was then I realized my mistake of not bringing my boys clothes to change and borrowed one of my team mates shirt and wore it on top of my fem dress and went to the stage which brought in big laughter from public along with applause. However after I collected my Karate prize I gestured by posing like a body builder showing off the biceps which brought further laughter. Then the Prof asked us if we were interested in a celebration party right away or later to which I replied that first thing I wanted to do was to go home and meet my aunt who had contributed immensely towards our win to which Prof also agreed and to party at a later date and said he would personally come home following week to thank her.
As soon as the celebrations were over myself and Raji went home to be greeted by aunt who was anxious about the proceedings and Raji gave her an act by act report and then the results and my gesture towards sharing the prize. When I told aunt that the girl with whom I shared the prize was Lata who happens to be daughter of one of her friend, aunt was very much pleased. Then she got a call from Lata's mother to compliment on my performance which she had seen and to thank me for letting her daughter share the prize. That night we were all terribly excited and after dinner and without even changing dress settled down on aunt's large double bed for a chat and did not realize when we had gone to sleep.
When I woke up around 9 am I found that aunt had woken early as usual but Raji was still sleeping. I found aunt in the drawing room arranging the prize in the show case and greeted me with a warm hug and a kiss on my forehead and said that the last one month was the best period in the family during past 3 years. I also felt very emotional and both of us sat on the sofa with my head on her bosom and aunt caressing me like a small child and engrossed in our special mother daughter bondage. While we were in that state of bliss Raji walked in and without saying a word sat on the other side of aunt with her head also on aunt's bosom and fondly hugging her. We were disturbed of our bliss when the phone started ringing and it was the photographer who wanted to know if he could bring the photos of our fashion parade along with the photos of the play he had taken and had recognized that I was figuring in both sets of photos and aunt asked him to come over.
However I was not keen to display my self in dress and told aunt that I would be in my room when the photographer comes home and use that time to take bath. Aunt bought all the photos from him and after he left aunt and Raji got busy looking at them and time to time exclaiming beautiful and lovely. After bath absent mindedly I dressed up in my saris and moderate makeup as usual and came out to see the photographs. Most of them were good and some were really lovely and started to put them in the album in order when I realized that as the play was over I was no more required to dress up in a sari but had still done it out of habit of past month and had suddenly become self conscious.
As if reading my mind aunt said that from next day I would be in my boy's clothes and hence she would like me to be dressed up in the saris at least till that time and in fact wanted three of us to go to the temple for thanks giving which I objected. Till the play nobody including familiar people had not recognized me whenever I had gone out in a sari in public but the same cannot be said as of now as the whole college and public had seen me in dress on the stage and will be able to recognize. I did not want to take any risk and complicate matters and hence suggested to aunt that we could offer prayers to the God in our Pooja room which aunt agreed but insisted that both myself and Raji should wear traditional silk saris and jewels of her choice.
After Raji took bath both of us were taken to my mom's wardrobe and aunt selected two pure silk saris with plenty of zari work both on the body, border and pallu which I thought may be heavy to wear. Aunt had also arranged for plenty of flowers for pooja and for me and Raji to wear after which we started our dressing up. As we completed our wearing the saris I found that they were soft and not so heavy and were really looking gorgeous on both of us as if we were in bridal dress. Then aunt made both of us wear pearl and golden necklaces and gold bangles. Raji also wore diamond ear studs which I could not wear as my ears were not pierced and wore the clip type ear rings after which aunt made both our hair in conventional plaits with plenty of flowers tucked in. Once we were ready under the guidance of aunt performed pooja and thanked God for the good things bestowed on the family. After admiring both of us aunt took more photographs in silk saris.
After enjoying wearing those beautiful silk saris we decided to change over to house wear and Raji choose to wear one of the saris I had worn in act 3 of the play and I asked aunt if I could wear Raji's skirt and blouse which she agreed. After going through Raji's clothes I selected a cotton skirt with multi colored flowery pattern and a matching yellow blouse along with silk scarf. Then Raji decided to change my wig to one with short hair and made my hair into a nice pattern she had learnt at Mary's and modified the makeup to suit. When aunt saw me in this dress she gave big broad smile in appreciation and I stayed in that dress till lunch and rest. In the evening all of freshened up aunt told Raji that the dress requirements for her at home were withdrawn and she could wear what ever she desired to which Raji replied that she had taken a great liking for the saris and would prefer to wear them over her other dresses. When it was my turn to change dress aunt preferred me to wear a sari she had bought for Prema just before the accident which she had never worn.
As the evening was passing I was sensing that aunt was getting emotional about her memories of Prema and all the time cuddling and caressing me with her kisses. With great hesitation and almost choking she told me that from next day I would be wearing, rightfully, only boy's clothes. However she asked me once in a way, if she desired to see Prema in me, whether I would be willing to wear fem clothes which she felt would be a great personal favor to her. I somehow had a feeling that this topic would come and hugged her affectionately and told her that I would wear fem clothes whenever she wished provided she would not cry and I was not required to go out in public at which she broke down and wept for five mts. Both I and Raji consoled her and after composing herself said they were tears of pleasure not pain as she is fortunate to find both a son and daughter in me.
I then decided to make the situation lighter and told her that as I have agreed to her request to dress whenever she desired, I also have a request. Both Raji and aunt were wondering what was it that I was going to say. Then I told aunt that during the last one month of dressing in fem clothes I have sort of developed a liking for wearing them and at times regretted having to change in to boys clothes to go to college and hence aunt should permit me to wear the fem clothes whenever I also felt a desire for wearing them to which aunt said an instant yes. She also proposed that I needed a fem name when I was in fem dress and we deliberated and finalized that as my male name was Ram we should convert it in to female gender by calling me as Rama.
With the end of play I did have problems in the college coping with a few boys trying to tease me for my girly role behind my back but were afraid to go any further due to my reputation as a Karate champion. Though a few girls did envy me for the role I had played to perfection, I found a plenty of girls being quite friendly to me, which also made me popular among boys. In fact a group of girls were so friendly that at times made me feel as if I was one of them. Though this came as a surprise to me, in a way I also enjoyed their company with my newfound liking for girly things.
One of those days my junior with whom I shared the best actress prize wanted to visit my home to know the full details how I had managed to put up such a good performance and asked me if it was possible to be dressed up as a fem when she came over. As I had some kind of nascent love for this girl agreed to her request and asked her to come home on the following Sunday. By the time she came home I had dressed up as a beautiful looking girl and received her to her immense pleasure. As aunt had to go out for few hours we were left to ourselves during which, we had a great girly time and gave her full details of how I was forced in to accepting the role and subsequent events.
Aunt spoke on the phone for a while and then she carried the cordless to her room and closed the door. I did not know about the call except that aunt continued her smile and said that she would make all efforts to see that I was comfortable with whatever I wished to pursue and went to her room to sleep. Next morning as usual aunt was up early and had stitched up the panties with padding which would increase my hip size around 2 inches. When I woke up the house maid was ready to give me oil bath and like previous week had an extended bath. Then aunt told me that she would like me to try out the makeup tips given by Mary and dress up in the red georgette saree. As I had some difficulties with the wig aunt helped me out with the new style and told me that she was going out for a while and expects me to be fully dressed up when she returned.
After about 15 mts aunt returned and the door were opened by house maid as I had still not finished my final adjustments to the pallu. When the maid saw one of my distant cousins Raji accompanying aunt she started giggling and was silenced as they wanted to surprise me. When I opened my door fully dressed up there stood in front of the door aunt and Raji smiling away to glory. Raji then hugged me by addressing as Chitra and said to aunt that she was right in describing me as beautiful looking girl and further complimented that I was real cute and kissed me on both the cheeks in girly style.
When I asked aunt why she did not tell me about Raji's plans she said yesterday was my day of suspense and today was hers and told me about last evenings phone call. She further told me that she wanted to give a surprise to both me and Raji and told her what to expect only on the way from bus stand. Raji further said that I look so much like prema who was very close to her and her best friend. Raji is my aunt's distant cousin's daughter and they stay in Bangalore about 3 hrs from my place. Raji for the past two years has been working in a marketing company and visits our town occasionally normally for a day or two. However this time as the local manager is away for one month she has been asked to take charge which she readily accepted as she would normally stay with us and she happens to be a great admirer of aunt who was also her role model.
Aunt and raji get along very well and when aunt gave her the complete story of my fem dressing and told her that it was a very good coincidence for her to be staying for a month as she can give me girly company and help me in perfecting my fem behavior. Raji happily agreed to the suggestion and hugged me again and said we would hit off greatly. Raji being a city girl normally wore jeans with tops, salwar suits, skirts & blouse, and rarely wore sarees and hence aunt made it a point to tell her that from now on till the drama date she should also wear sarees at home to give me company. As such aunt was not against raji wearing her normal dresses but she said they can wait till the drama was over after which I could also try out her dresses.
After raji took her bath and came out wearing a flowery skirt and matching blouse I found it very nice. When aunt enquired she said she had no choice as she had not brought any sarees.
Then aunt called us both to explore my mother's wardrobe which had a large stock and variety of sarees at least twice the size of aunts. They consisted of variety of silks from mysore, dharmavaram, banaras and madras and latest garden silks. Then there were several cotton sarees from madurai, kanchi, gadwal, kota and bengal which were all roller pressed. These also consisted of a large number of printed silks, voil cotton, polyester and other synthetic sarees. Aunt took out all these and laid them on the bed nicely and started explaining details about each of them which was a lesson for both of us girls. After more than an hour when we finished aunt told us both to select any sarees we liked to wear. Raji selected few printed silks and synthetic sarees in flowery patterns and I also picked up a few printed silks and my favorite kota sarees. Then aunt told Raji she can try 3 fittings of blouses ,one aunts, second moms and third mine and which ever fits her better she could use and found that moms size fitted her nicely. So Raji went in to the guest room and changed to one of the printed silk saree in purple body and red border and looked different and beautiful.
Aunt also dressed up and brought the jewelry and asked Raji and me to wear them and proposed that we all go to the temple and on the way bought flowers for me and Raji and fixed them on the hair. Being a Sunday the temple was a bit crowded. So we three entered the temple from the exclusive ladies only side which was my first experience of mingling and rubbing body with traditionally dressed ladies both young and old. While we were waiting our turn for puja I noticed a couple of my college girls near us and my heart almost came to my mouth and as usual aunt always kept an eye on me and enquired. When I told her about the girls from college she just said ignore them and in case they look at me give them a confident smile. However they did not recognize me and were busy gossiping the event passed off to my relief. Experience and confidence is the key to my problems said aunt and assured me that at least till the drama is staged nobody will recognize me and after which having seen me on stage in dress people might recognize me in public if seen in dress.
After lunch aunt said that she wanted to take a nap and I and Raji took charge of clearing the table and cleaning up the kitchen and were relaxing and got into girly chat. Then Raji started smiling and said that it has been real pleasant surprise to her what aunt told her on the way home from bus stand and to see me in saree again reiterated that I look real cute and she was in fact envying me. Then I replied that even she was looking beautiful in saree and with make up like mine she will definitely look more beautiful and explained to her the Mary's magic. Raji thanked me for the compliments and in her usual way of expressing pleasure kissed me on both cheeks and said that some time she would also like to visit Mary for a makeup session with me.
One important change Raji brought about to our conversation was to keep addressing me in feminine gender common in most Indian languages unlike English. For the next hour or so both of us started chatting about my college girls and how I had started viewing them differently since dressing up and Raji also spoke about her close girl friends and some colleagues. Then she asked me about how I felt about boys to whom I replied that I did not have much experience except the previous days outing at the mall and the boys and the lady's comments about me. When I told her the full story of that lady she started laughing and said that how nice it would be if she could meet that lady and get more details of her son and if she could propose herself at which both of us started laughing for a few minutes. When I asked Raji about her boy friends she told me that one colleague, one of her classmates and one from the neighborhood were trying to woo her but she has not responded to any one as such. Then I told her the story of my play and hoped that she will also not disappoint all of them. Raji then told me that whatever girly chat we have should be between us only and not even aunt should know anything.
That evening while we were dressing up to go for a walk Raji suggested I do my makeup in a simpler fashion which is normally done by most of the girls and they do stylish makeup and hair only for special occasions and aunt also agreed to this suggestion. Then both of them helped me to design a simple make up ensuring that I would still continue to look feminine and I also left my pallu free flowing. Just as aunt was parking her car she saw one of her acquaintances and told us to carry on as she would catch up with us after a chat with her. That left me and Raji and we started in our usual route all the time raji addressing in fem gender which made me feel real girly.
After a while we saw two boys walking towards us from opposite direction. As we were about to cross Raji addressed them as hay handsome and the boys just stood there in front of us and in the absence of aunt I was feeling nervous when Raji just asked them for the time. After the boys responded she just smiled and said thanks and introduced me as Chitra to which I mumbled out faint hay and herself as Raji and said see you some time. When the boys said why not spend some time together now with the beautiful young ladies she replied that our aunt was about to join us and we must leave. Anyway the boys were quite thrilled to meet two beautiful young ladies and hoped to meet us again. All through her chat with the boys I was trying to smile and put up a brave and confidant presence. I was really cross with Raji and asked her why she did that, she replied that it was for my benefit as she wanted me to experience meeting unexpected strangers and still feel normal. Raji further said that as long as I was dressed in fem clothes I should consider myself only as a girl and nothing else and learn to respond like any other girl would do.
It took me some more time to normalize and when I realized that I had conducted myself fairly well my anger towards Raji disappeared when we saw aunt coming towards us. Raji did not mention anything to aunt about our encounter with the boys and after walking for a while aunt suggested we go to one of the Sunday market for some groceries and eat at Dasprakash before going home. It was only after we reached the market that I realized it was near our college and my worst fears came true when I saw some of my classmates (boys) among the shoppers. At that point I was debating with myself if we should avoid them by moving away to some other area of the market and then remembered advice of Raji and aunt decided to face the situation. As per Raji's advice I had my make up done moderately and hence did not attract any special attention from young men or even ladies as I was looking like any other girl in the crowd. Even though some of my class mates passed by near me nobody recognized me and one of them even said excuse me miss as he wanted me to give him way to cross. While going through this experience I was really pleased with myself and my improved abilities and as Raji had mentioned was feeling and being treated like a real girl and was enjoying it.
For the next week all three of us were busy and our rehearsals really going in top gear with all the 4 acts. All the actors were doing very well and the only concern of the members was if can be feminine enough on the stage and as promised the Prof had made changes for me to appear in all the 4 acts and end was also made humorous. On my part I had made it a point not to exhibit my feminine abilities during rehearsals and Prof even spoke to aunt his concerns to which aunt told him not to worry about me and concentrate on other actors. She also assured him that she will help them out with my role when the final rehearsals were held at our house. As requested by aunt Raji made it a point to wear only sarees at home on her return from office and was a great company. With every passing day I was growing feminine by leaps and bounds and at times used to regret having to change from saree to boys clothes to go to college.
After finishing classes that day and before the rehearsals I suddenly realized that due to my over indulgence in the fem role I had neglected my karate practice in the past two days and decided to compensate. In fact I was quite relieved to come back to reality and did an extended workout of karate which brought about a sense of balance and the boisterous masculine feeling came back. The rehearsals were well under control and I had started letting out the fem character of my role little at a time and even the Prof appeared to be satisfied and was banking on aunt for the rest. As for the dress practice at home it was going fine and improving every day under supervision of aunt and Raji. One afternoon when both raji and me were home early and dressed up as aunt asked us to go and pay the telephone bill as it was the last date. When Raji and I reached the payment centre it was quite crowded and we somehow managed to reach the ladies queue which was also a bit long. After a while Raji asked me to hold the bill and cheque and be in queue as she would be back in a few minutes and went out. Due to the rush the queue was moving slowly and as per my estimate it would take at least 15 mts for our turn to pay.
As the male and female queue were adjacent it gave ample opportunity for the men to keep staring at the ladies including myself for visual recreation and even after 10 mts Raji did not turn up. For me all by myself passing those 10 mts was like hours and knew that Raji had done it on purpose and put up with the remaining time and paid the bill. When I came out looking for Raji she was nowhere to be seen and was wondering whether to return home on my own by auto. As I was signaling for an auto I heard a voice from the back calling me hay sweetie and found Raji who was all the while around the counter hiding from my sight and followed me. This time instead of showing any anger I gave a smile and said thanks for the company and she accepted my compliments by saying well done baby. That was my first experience of independently handling an activity in dress though for a short while.
As the week was coming to an end aunt was relying more and more on Raji to manage my activities in dress and gradual feminization. I must say she was doing very well except that at times she would put me in unknown territory and expose me to unexpected situations and all the while I have been learning to handle myself and realizing that it was as much a mental game as the physical aspect of the dress.By now aunt was relying more and more on Raji to manage my activities in dress and gradual feminization. I must say she was doing very well except that at times she would put me in unknown territory and expose me to unexpected situations and all the while I have been learning to handle myself and realizing that it was as much a mental game as the physical aspect of the dress.
On the afternoon of Saturday I and Raji were back by lunch time and aunt was due only later. As we were going to change our dresses I requested Raji to let me wear her skirt and blouse till aunt returned after which it had be a sari. I selected a knee length skirt in flowery design and a matching pink blouse and Raji opted for a roller pressed Kota sari. After dressing up I found that Raji was looking lovely in the sari and complimented her and she also said that I look very cute in the skirt. Aunt returned rather early and seeing me in the skirt said that she was expecting to find me in this dress some time and that I was looking very nice. She also felt that unfortunately the dress requirements of the drama were limited to saris only as otherwise she would have loved to dress me up in some of these clothes as well.
Raji was excited wearing the sari and told aunt that as she was wearing the saris regularly since her arrival in Mysore for the first time, and she had developed a liking for the dress and she intends to continue wearing even after her return to Bangalore. Aunt was very much pleased to hear this change in the dressing sense of Raji and mentioned that apart from being traditional, saris are also worn stylishly like Air Hostesses and is the favorite dress of most lady CEO's of big company's in the country. Then Raji requested aunt to get her an appointment with Mary to help her with makeup and hair style and aunt fixed it up for both of us at 11Am on Sunday. After seeing Raji in that roller pressed kota I also decided to wear one in a different color combination and in formal fashion with pallu pleated and fixed on the shoulder and felt great. Aunt then suggested that as she had carried home some office work me and Rajas to go out on our own but be back home for dinner.
As neither of us had car driving license Raji rang up her colleague to bring the office scooter for her use till Monday morning and gave the address. As Raji was driving I was required to be the pillion and in dress I had to sit in ladies style which I experienced for the first time. Raji was having fun driving around the town and she did not stop even after we reached the MG road which was our walking area. She was in fact trying to see if she could find the boys we had met the previous week. She had almost given up and was about to park the scooter when the boys appeared at a distance and waited for them. As soon as the boys saw us they recognized and with a big broad smile said hay and enquired if they had any fortune of our company to which Raji replied yes if they can behave themselves to be good boys for one hour. As the boys picked up conversation Raji told them that she was employed in Mysore and myself her cousin had come on a visit from Bangalore and my family were shifting to Mysore shortly. The boys also introduced themselves as Hari and Krishna employed in a multinational financial company.
Raji then picked up Hari as her companion and Krishna mine and said that she and Hari would walk in one direction and me and Krishna in the other and we would meet at the same point in an hour. I always expected Raji to do the unexpected but this proposal was beyond my thinking and even before I could react she set off with Hari leaving me stranded anxiously with Krishna who beaming with expectant pleasure. As I was wondering what to do Krishna politely asked me if we should also proceed and I said ok and started walking in his company. After my initial shock was controlled and I composed myself, I told him that I walk a little slow and hence he should reduce his speed to which he agreed. Then I asked him about his other girl friends to which he replied that I was his first and he was a bit nervous which lightened my mood and told him to relax as I was not going to eat him which made him also laugh.
With both of us in a lighter mood he told me about his education, family etc and I also told him about my non existent family in Bangalore and we also talked about our likes, dislikes, favorite movies stars and en route he bought me an ice cream. By the time we finished the ice cream we realized that we were left with 10 mts to return and on the way with great hesitation he asked me if he could hold my hand. I thought that having come this far as a girl I would let him have the pleasure of holding my hand and he held it softly with a sense of achievement. Even for me it was an experience of sorts because as a boy I had held other boys hands several times but holding a boys hand as a girl had a different pleasurable sensation and I enjoyed it. What I did not realize was that we were being watched from a distance by Raji and Hari. As we saw them I withdrew my hand from Krishna's and suddenly felt shy and self conscious and without another word said reached the scooter. However I had composed myself to see Raji giving me a mischievous smile and enquired if we had enjoyed ourselves to which I replied very much and that next time I want to meet Krishna it would be without Raji or Hari to which both of them said wow.
When the boys wanted our contact numbers for future communication I told them it would be better if we contacted them as we may have problems with aunt and they gave us their tel nos and bid good bye. When Raji commented that I was quite bold for first date I replied that I was not vulnerable being a boy and as such today might be the last day I might see Krishna in the dress with my drama being staged coming week end which would also end at least my public dressing. As we were returning it had become windy which was causing my pallu to flow and dance around my shoulders but as I was holding the scooter with both hands I could not attend to the pallu and the feeling was great. As usual Raji's response to aunt's query about our evening was just fine without any further mention of details as she felt that girly secrets should not be given away to elders. Anyway it was an eventful day with learning experiences.
Sunday morning aunt woke us up early as we had to take oil bath and get ready before going to Mary' place at 11am and since we were two, both house maid and aunt got into the act of applying oil massage. By 10.30 both of us were ready with normal make up and left for Mary's place which was a bit crowded with some important clients dropping in unexpectedly and we were informed that we may be delayed by half hour and were handed over few issues of fashion magazines. The waiting ladies both young and middle aged were studying the others for the dresses and styles and Raji was no different. She started giving me her assessment of each lady by turn and liked the overall get up of one lady so much that she went up to her complimented her saying after Mary attended to her she might look much more beautiful. That lady was a senior executive in a marketing company was flattered by Raji's comments and enquired about Raji who introduced herself and me and were invited for Tea and chat after our session with Mary.
Mary had 3 assistants working in small cubical and as our turn came she enquired our requirements. Raji said that she wanted to know the way to make up for office and other important occasions and which type would be suitable for sarees and other dresses. Mary instructed her assistant the details to work on Raji while she attended to me as I was a special case. Mary commented that she has found lots of changes in my fem personality and that I was looking lot more confident in the dress to which I replied that the main credit for all this goes to Mary's magic which brought a broad smile on her face.
Mary then started working on the improvements for both normal and formal make up and hair style. Then I told her about my drama date and that I preferred to come here one hour before the play to get the make up and style done and go to the stage directly and that she should keep herself totally free to attend to me to which she replied that it shall be her pleasure. Raji was first shown the makeup and style for her other dresses and lastly the style suitable for sarees. While we were engaged Raji's new friend was also getting herself styled and she finished within 5 mts after us. When Raji came out she was really looking stunning and the elation was showing on her face and when her new friend saw her she did not recognize at first instance. When we asked Mary for the payment she brushed us aside and said she would settle it with aunt who was one of her best friends.
The lady acquaintance introduced herself as Mala and we went to a nearby posh restraunt for our cup of Tea and a chat. Mala also praised the dramatic changes Mary had brought about in Raji and enquired about us. Then Raji gave her correct info about her job and told her that I was a Home Science student at Maharani' in Bangalore. After a little chat Mala gave details about her marketing job and that she shuttles between Bangalore and Mysore as a Regional Manager. She then asked Raji if she would be interested in joining her company as there was a vacancy as an assistant marketing manager with a good package and she was impressed by Raji. For curiosity sake Raji asked her as they had just met and hardly spoke what is it that impressed her to offer a good job. Mala replied that though as a lady she certainly felt flattered about Raji first going to her and praising her getup but that was feminine trait and personal in nature. But what prompted in her offering the job to Raji was her ability to go to a stranger and acquainting herself with that person as an important quality for a marketing person. Raji appreciated Mala's assessment and said that she was rather good at that skill, which I also seconded, and agreed to send her resume to her for further processing.
I was pleased that in spite of interacting with a variety of ladies and few men I was able to get away undetected thanks mainly to aunt, Raji and Mary. With these thoughts and an unexpected bonus for Raji in the form of a good job offer we returned home in a great mood. When aunt saw us she exclaimed this is unbelievable and asked me is it Raji with you to which I replied Mary's magic. Aunt then said Mary is really a gifted artist and in spite of so many great offers from movie world does not want to get out of Mysore. She further said with both of us dressed so well she can't think of any plan to show us off. Further her pending office work was still incomplete and hence can't go out with us. Then Raji mentioned that she has a plan which was for both of us to perform a fashion parade with different saris and aunt could take photographs and in the evening we could go to Brindavan Gardens for which Raji could arrange a Taxi from her office.
With aunts help both of us dressed up in different saris and walked down the stairs which was our ramp with the pallu in formal, free flow displaying it in several ways. Then Raji proposed that we wear the sari in Gujrati style which was gorgeous. As aunt was busy with her work between our changes of saris she took our photos in all the saris and styles. This went on upto 4pm after which all of us took rest for half hour before me and Raji got ready in Printed silk saris to go to Brindavan Gardens. Aunt told us to be careful to which Raji mentioned that there was nothing to worry as she was going with a karate champion. On the way she asked the taxi to stop at Gandhi statue and found who she was looking for and it turned out to be Hari and Krishna who got into the car with Hari sitting in the front seat and Krishna, myself and Raji in the rear seat.
It was a 40 mts journey to the gardens and after a while Raji told Krishna that she would not mind if he held my hand to which I said a firm no and told her that if she so wished Krishna could sit in the front seat and she can sit with Hari and hold his hand. She then said there is going to be plenty of time for all that once we reach the Gardens and gave a mock smile to me. In the company of Raji I was slowly learning a few tricks and after we reached the Gardens I said to Raji that today we must exchange companions and I would go with Hari and she could accompany Krishna. This seems to have excited Hari as Raji had not extended him any courtesies like holding the hand the previous day. When Raji suggested that we could all go together round the Gardens I again said like yesterday we shall go in different directions and meet in an hour's time for our return at the taxi. As was obvious Raji was not interested in both Hari and Krishna but was trying to give me some lessons and experience of Boys Company and after previous days walk with Krishna I wanted to see how Hari would behave.
It appears that the boys had exchanged notes of their experience of the previous day and must have thought that I was easier of the two girls so I also thought of playing along. As per yesterday's script Hari also told me about him, his family likes and dislikes and I also repeated the same. Then I also added that I was a girl's karate champion which was not in yesterday's script. Hence even after an Ice cream and some snacks Hari did not dare to ask me about holding the hand. He had tried to befriend a few girls but did not get far. Then I told him that one should treat the friends of opposite sex more as companions than for romance which might happen over a long period of association. He appreciated my views and agreed that I was right but asked me why I choose to change partners today to which I replied that I wanted to be friendly with both of them and wanted to get to know them both. At the end of our time I told him that he can also have the pleasure of holding my hand if he was interested and he did not hesitate a second in holding my hand and brimming with pleasure. For me it was only an experiment to see how it felt to do so and I was happy to have done that. On the other hand Raji made Krishna buy her several things to eat and drink and just made him follow her during the outing. On the return I sat in the front seat for fresh air and made Raji to sit between the boys. Only she can explain how she felt about it.
The drama was due end of next week and as decided the final rehearsals were to be held in our house. The routine in the college was classes and the remaining spent in the Karate workout which was shaping up quite well. Regarding the rehearsals at home aunt had made the required arrangements and I had decided that out of six days I would rehearse with my boys clothes only for the first 3 days and during the last 3 days I would wear only a sari on top of my boys dress just to differentiate my role though I had brought enough feminine content to my role. This aspect was well appreciated by all the members and was confident that when I was fully dressed on the D day it would be great. From my side I had decided to expose my real feminine self only on the stage as a surprise package.
As per the programme my Karate rounds would be over by Friday, the girls play was also to be staged the same evening and our play and the prize distribution was fixed for Saturday evening. As our play had shaped up well and I was quite ready with my role in all respects I decided to concentrate on my Karate even by skipping some classes which in the end was a good decision. Like me few other seniors were also practicing very hard and two of us reached finals due on Friday and seeing the other finalist I was less confident than before. Seeing my predicament aunt taught me some breathing exercises to keep me level headed and alert which helped me a great deal and made a difference between my possible defeat converted to victory by a whisker. The karate championship was really a great moral booster for me and my boisterous feeling and I had absolutely no reservations in doing the fem role. By that time the cat was out of the bag about secret of the details of our play and the actors especially the karate champion playing the fem role was the real news and the girls were pleased about it and thought they would have an easy walk over.
Some of the girls had worked hard for their male roles and took the fem roles for granted except one girl who was my junior in school and a good actress. As a team the boys group watched the girls play and found that the performance of the male roles was quite good though they lacked a bit on the male mannerisms and my school junior in a fem role was really good and best of the lot and the play as a whole was well appreciated. That brought about a lot of anxiety to our team members on two counts one the boys had to perform their roles on par with the girls if not better and secondly my fem role had to be really good to decide the competition. With these thoughts I went home and reported to aunt about the girls play and our Professor was also nervous and rang up aunt for help in improving the effect of my role. Aunt replied that he take care of the improvements in the male roles and she would handle mine and asked him to complete the final rehearsals in the morning itself so that I have enough time till evening to practice certain improvements and started scheming for the kill.
Next morning aunt made me take weekly oil massage and as the final rehearsals were to be held in the morning and the play was taking place in the evening she stayed back at home. That day after bath I dressed in one of the saris but kept the makeup to a bare minimum so that I would be adequately dressed for the final rehearsals and my co-actors could get a decent idea how I might look on the stage. Aunt and Prof supervised the rehearsals and improvised on several scenes and were quite satisfied about the performance. The boy playing my father and another who was playing the role of one of my boyfriends were excellent while the others were also quite good and my role was also very much appreciated except the doubt of how feminine I would look and act on the stage. Anyway that part of mine was a closely guarded secret only to be unfolded on the stage. Before they left aunt put forward certain requirements for me like I needed a separate dressing room and between the second, third and fourth acts the interval was to be a bit longer to be decided by me at that time. The Prof agreed and said he would do anything to win the competition.
Aunt had decided that I would wear 3 different saris during the play instead of her original plan for 2 and then set about teaching me certain way fem. handle their saris under different situations. During the first act I would wear the sari in formal way and the same sari would be worn with free flowing pallu in the second act. I would then change my saris for the third and fourth acts and practiced how I would handle or play with the pallu in different parts of the play like just holding the free end with my right hand, then bringing it on top of my right shoulder and in some scenes just letting it free and lastly to bring the pallu in front showing off the design on the folded left hand. These aspects were making all the difference in fem behavior as the girls who played the fem roles had dressed up in only one or two saris through out the play and that too was worn in formal type. Till lunch I practiced these special effects under the guidance of aunt when we were joined by Raji. Then Aunt made me rehearse the whole thing in front of Raji who also made few additions.
After lunch aunt gave a total programme of my dressing plan to Raji and told her that she would accompany me first to Mary and then to the play and personally supervise my dressing. It was also decided that I would make minimum changes between acts except sari and blouse for third and fourth acts and use only one petty coat and under garments. Then we assembled the items required act wise and packed them separately and decided to rest for a while before going to Mary's place.
When I enquired about aunts programmed she replied that she would not be coming for the play as she had some fond and emotional memories of that place when Prema was a student there and she might break down. She further said that the Prof has agreed to keep the rear gate behind the stage open only for our car and we shall go to the stage directly from Mary's place just prior to the start of play and she had arranged for a driver. Around 5 Pm we reached Mary's saloon which was opened one hour before only for us and she got to work immediately. It took her about 40 mts to work on my makeup and hair style which she said was for the first act but she then instructed Raji to make few small changes for the subsequent acts as that would give a new look for each act. She also told us to buy roses in 4 different colors for putting in my hair for each act and wished me luck. The timing was perfect for us to reach the stage through the back gate to avoid any one from seeing me till the play started in 5 mts.
As I entered the rear stage to my dressing room some of my team members around could not even recognize me and said that the room was reserved for actors and I started laughing and when I said I am Chitra of the play it was just beyond their belief. However, all the members came to find me in the dress and said that I was looking fantastic and better than most of the real girls. That also brought about lot of confidence in the boys who were sensing possibility of winning the competition and almost appeared to be possessed by the event and promised that each one of us will try more than their best and do well. As I entered the stage for the first act the crowd was dumb founded if my role was being played by a boy or a girl and if there was any foul play? It was only my voice which had a tinge of male content made them realize that the fem role was indeed being played by a boy who otherwise no where near looked like a boy but a total fem. As first act completed successfully we went into the second with greater confidence and vigor in the process were building up the tempo and my wearing the pallu free flow and certain fem nuances aunt had incorporated and variations in style had its effect.
For the third act I had a change of sari and appearance were done in minimum time and as I appeared on stage there were lots of boys whistling in appreciation. The handling of the pallu in different ways left the girls shocked and wondering why they had not thought of these ideas during their play. However I had reserved the best for the final act where my makeup and style were the best and toying with the pallu was also most feminine. Apart from me my other team members especially my father and a boy friend in the play did an excellent job to end the final act at the peak of histrionics and humor. The crowd both male and female liked the play immensely and clapping lasted for a long time even after the curtains were down.
That ended the competition and the whole team backstage was complimenting each other for good performance and Prof also came specially to compliment me on an unbelievable performance and said that irrespective of who wins he was happy with a good job done and we were able to entertain the public. He also informed that there were 3 prizes, one for the best play, one for the best actor/actress in male role and one for best actor/actress in female role. Further there were 4 judges 2 male and 2 female all of them being famous stage personalities. We had time of 15 mts for results after which the prize distribution would take place. I requested our Prof to see that my Karate prize should be given after the drama prize so that I could go home on a winning note as the drama results were not yet known. He then came back and confirmed that my request was agreed upon. In the meanwhile all of us including Raji were gossiping about the play waiting for the results.
The prize distribution started with sports, literary prizes and the drama prizes were next which made us very uneasy and nervous. Then as the announcement was made that our play had won the competition all the boys in the crowd erupted with joy and started whistling and clapping and the pleasure in the team was also on high pitch as all of us were called on the stage and the prize was collected by the senior most. When he was asked to speak on the win he simply said that but for my role acted beautifully it would have been difficult to win. The prize for the male role which was won by my boy friend in the play and before announcing the prize for female role the announcer took a few mts to reconfirm from the judges about the name and announced with a big smile my name. This was enough to set fire in the girls team and their lady Prof as they had lost out on all the prizes.
It was more than I could take as the role was thrust on me and I accepted it to save the team and our target was to win the competition which we did. But this prize was the most unexpected and when my name was called for a second time I went to the stage still in fem dress and requested that if the judges did not mind the prize should be given to my school junior from girl's team who had acted very well and the judges agreed and appreciated my gesture. However that girl refused to accept as she also felt that I had acted the fem role beautifully and deserved the prize. In the end as a compromise both of us were declared joint winners. When both of us went to the stage I told her to take the prize by saying ladies first to which she remarked that I was more feminine than most females and in real sense it was my day so I must take the prize first which I obliged. After she collected her prize she asked me how I managed to do it and I told her that she must come home some day for a detailed story and aunt would be happy to see her after 2 years. When I went backstage Raji hugged me tightly and kissed me girly style and I told her that all the credit goes to her and aunt not to forget Mary.
When public thought that the ceremony was over an announcement was made that one more prize was to be given and it was for the boys Karate champion. It was then I realized my mistake of not bringing my boys clothes to change and borrowed one of my team mates shirt and wore it on top of my fem dress and went to the stage which brought in big laughter from public along with applause. However after I collected my Karate prize I gestured by posing like a body builder showing off the biceps which brought further laughter. Then the Prof asked us if we were interested in a celebration party right away or later to which I replied that first thing I wanted to do was to go home and meet my aunt who had contributed immensely towards our win to which Prof also agreed and to party at a later date and said he would personally come home following week to thank her.
As soon as the celebrations were over myself and Raji went home to be greeted by aunt who was anxious about the proceedings and Raji gave her an act by act report and then the results and my gesture towards sharing the prize. When I told aunt that the girl with whom I shared the prize was Lata who happens to be daughter of one of her friend, aunt was very much pleased. Then she got a call from Lata's mother to compliment on my performance which she had seen and to thank me for letting her daughter share the prize. That night we were all terribly excited and after dinner and without even changing dress settled down on aunt's large double bed for a chat and did not realize when we had gone to sleep.
When I woke up around 9 am I found that aunt had woken early as usual but Raji was still sleeping. I found aunt in the drawing room arranging the prize in the show case and greeted me with a warm hug and a kiss on my forehead and said that the last one month was the best period in the family during past 3 years. I also felt very emotional and both of us sat on the sofa with my head on her bosom and aunt caressing me like a small child and engrossed in our special mother daughter bondage. While we were in that state of bliss Raji walked in and without saying a word sat on the other side of aunt with her head also on aunt's bosom and fondly hugging her. We were disturbed of our bliss when the phone started ringing and it was the photographer who wanted to know if he could bring the photos of our fashion parade along with the photos of the play he had taken and had recognized that I was figuring in both sets of photos and aunt asked him to come over.
However I was not keen to display my self in dress and told aunt that I would be in my room when the photographer comes home and use that time to take bath. Aunt bought all the photos from him and after he left aunt and Raji got busy looking at them and time to time exclaiming beautiful and lovely. After bath absent mindedly I dressed up in my saris and moderate makeup as usual and came out to see the photographs. Most of them were good and some were really lovely and started to put them in the album in order when I realized that as the play was over I was no more required to dress up in a sari but had still done it out of habit of past month and had suddenly become self conscious.
As if reading my mind aunt said that from next day I would be in my boy's clothes and hence she would like me to be dressed up in the saris at least till that time and in fact wanted three of us to go to the temple for thanks giving which I objected. Till the play nobody including familiar people had not recognized me whenever I had gone out in a sari in public but the same cannot be said as of now as the whole college and public had seen me in dress on the stage and will be able to recognize. I did not want to take any risk and complicate matters and hence suggested to aunt that we could offer prayers to the God in our Pooja room which aunt agreed but insisted that both myself and Raji should wear traditional silk saris and jewels of her choice.
After Raji took bath both of us were taken to my mom's wardrobe and aunt selected two pure silk saris with plenty of zari work both on the body, border and pallu which I thought may be heavy to wear. Aunt had also arranged for plenty of flowers for pooja and for me and Raji to wear after which we started our dressing up. As we completed our wearing the saris I found that they were soft and not so heavy and were really looking gorgeous on both of us as if we were in bridal dress. Then aunt made both of us wear pearl and golden necklaces and gold bangles. Raji also wore diamond ear studs which I could not wear as my ears were not pierced and wore the clip type ear rings after which aunt made both our hair in conventional plaits with plenty of flowers tucked in. Once we were ready under the guidance of aunt performed pooja and thanked God for the good things bestowed on the family. After admiring both of us aunt took more photographs in silk saris.
After enjoying wearing those beautiful silk saris we decided to change over to house wear and Raji choose to wear one of the saris I had worn in act 3 of the play and I asked aunt if I could wear Raji's skirt and blouse which she agreed. After going through Raji's clothes I selected a cotton skirt with multi colored flowery pattern and a matching yellow blouse along with silk scarf. Then Raji decided to change my wig to one with short hair and made my hair into a nice pattern she had learnt at Mary's and modified the makeup to suit. When aunt saw me in this dress she gave big broad smile in appreciation and I stayed in that dress till lunch and rest. In the evening all of freshened up aunt told Raji that the dress requirements for her at home were withdrawn and she could wear what ever she desired to which Raji replied that she had taken a great liking for the saris and would prefer to wear them over her other dresses. When it was my turn to change dress aunt preferred me to wear a sari she had bought for Prema just before the accident which she had never worn.
As the evening was passing I was sensing that aunt was getting emotional about her memories of Prema and all the time cuddling and caressing me with her kisses. With great hesitation and almost choking she told me that from next day I would be wearing, rightfully, only boy's clothes. However she asked me once in a way, if she desired to see Prema in me, whether I would be willing to wear fem clothes which she felt would be a great personal favor to her. I somehow had a feeling that this topic would come and hugged her affectionately and told her that I would wear fem clothes whenever she wished provided she would not cry and I was not required to go out in public at which she broke down and wept for five mts. Both I and Raji consoled her and after composing herself said they were tears of pleasure not pain as she is fortunate to find both a son and daughter in me.
I then decided to make the situation lighter and told her that as I have agreed to her request to dress whenever she desired, I also have a request. Both Raji and aunt were wondering what was it that I was going to say. Then I told aunt that during the last one month of dressing in fem clothes I have sort of developed a liking for wearing them and at times regretted having to change in to boys clothes to go to college and hence aunt should permit me to wear the fem clothes whenever I also felt a desire for wearing them to which aunt said an instant yes. She also proposed that I needed a fem name when I was in fem dress and we deliberated and finalized that as my male name was Ram we should convert it in to female gender by calling me as Rama.
With the end of play I did have problems in the college coping with a few boys trying to tease me for my girly role behind my back but were afraid to go any further due to my reputation as a Karate champion. Though a few girls did envy me for the role I had played to perfection, I found a plenty of girls being quite friendly to me, which also made me popular among boys. In fact a group of girls were so friendly that at times made me feel as if I was one of them. Though this came as a surprise to me, in a way I also enjoyed their company with my newfound liking for girly things.
One of those days my junior with whom I shared the best actress prize wanted to visit my home to know the full details how I had managed to put up such a good performance and asked me if it was possible to be dressed up as a fem when she came over. As I had some kind of nascent love for this girl agreed to her request and asked her to come home on the following Sunday. By the time she came home I had dressed up as a beautiful looking girl and received her to her immense pleasure. As aunt had to go out for few hours we were left to ourselves during which, we had a great girly time and gave her full details of how I was forced in to accepting the role and subsequent events.
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